What I Did With the Total Solar Eclipse, Part 2
You might have guessed that She isn’t my wife. But She isn’t really my mom, either. Although both of them have played that role for me, She is really a phantasm.
Dictionary definitions of phantasm include:
- a creation of the imagination or fancy; fantasy;
- a mental image or representation of a real object;
- an illusory likeness of something. (Dictionary.com)
She is a an illusory likeness, a mental image created – by my inner child, one could say – of the wound in my soul that compels me to treat others’ emotions and needs as primary, and my own as secondary.
Now, it appears to be true that I learned this behavior from my mother first in this lifetime. But I know that my mom and I have a soul contract about abandonment and self-abandonment dating back at least several hundred years to a lifetime in Tibet. Continue reading