What I Did With the Total Solar Eclipse, Part 2
Cactus flowering in a ditch. Photo by DK.
You might have guessed that She isn’t my wife. But She isn’t really my mom, either. Although both of them have played that role for me, She is really a phantasm.
Dictionary definitions of phantasm include:
- a creation of the imagination or fancy; fantasy;
- a mental image or representation of a real object;
- an illusory likeness of something. (Dictionary.com)
She is a an illusory likeness, a mental image created – by my inner child, one could say – of the wound in my soul that compels me to treat others’ emotions and needs as primary, and my own as secondary.
Now, it appears to be true that I learned this behavior from my mother first in this lifetime. But I know that my mom and I have a soul contract about abandonment and self-abandonment dating back at least several hundred years to a lifetime in Tibet. Continue reading