Making Room for the Big Idea
I’ve been working on a Big Idea for a while now. If I told you how long, I’d have to kill you. But let’s just say it has been percolating in my creative unconscious since at least 2014.
This past week, as Mercury stationed direct, I felt the gears starting to click into place. (There are a lot of moving parts here!)
My initial reaction was mild euphoria, followed immediately by suspicion: “Whoa! Can this really be it? After all this time? But what about…?”
Since I returned from New Orleans, I feel like I’ve been playing catch-up on all of the work I couldn’t get done while I was on the road – and the tasks I couldn’t focus on during the Mercury Rx. And we’re still working on the house. A lot of things are competing for my attention each day.
But this idea concerns what I feel called to do for the foreseeable future. It’s about my calling. My life’s work.
Coloring in Words
As the initial euphoria faded, I started feeling paralyzed. Last night, instead of working through my to-do list, I found myself sorting notes and lists and lyrics and charts into folders. Then I broke out the new colored artist pencils I bought with my kid in New Orleans and started hand-lettering subject titles on the folders.
The monkey-mind was shrieking at me. “What are you doing?! You don’t have time for this!”
But my soul wanted to color in words. And this morning as I saw what I’d done, I realized I was making room for the Big Idea.
And…there’s something about drawing words in colored pencil. I thought back to times when I’d done this in the past. It seems to be a way for me to focus my conscious mind on the completion of a task that requires a certain degree of attention — while also getting it out of the way. Making space for my my creative unconscious mind to work with the deeper creative meaning behind the word I’m coloring.
Plus, it feels good!
Update: Mercury Conjunct Uranus
I’ve been into the Omega/Chandra symbols lately and after I published the post above, I was looking at the degree symbols for Wednesday’s Scorpio Full Moon. And I thought: “hey, I should look at the degree of the Mercury-Uranus conjunction (just after midnight EDT tonight)…Here’s John Sandbach’s write-up from his TwinkleTwinkle blog:
You may often find yourself focusing on something and not knowing why. When this happens, rather than trying to ignore it you need to actually focus on it, for the universe is trying to tell you something. Underneath all the layers of outer distractions exist deeper wells of being which you need to explore.
The Chandra Symbol for this degree is “The man in the moon smiling.” The crater of the Omega Symbol is in the shape of a cup – it is a place where the earth has received a message from outside its sphere. This degree is acutely receptive, and all it takes to bring it to its highest manifestation is to focus on that which is worthy of being received – that which is nourishing to one’s being.
So many messages today about how crucial it is now to follow the heart and act in alignment with the soul. That sound you hear in the distance, reminiscent of talking heads arguing loudly on a TV news show? That’s the death knell of the old world.
The world in which a grim determination to live up to society’s expectations was actually considered a great virtue. A world in which billions of humans broke their bodies, poisoned their souls, and betrayed their spirits to accomplish their appointed duties, casting only sidelong glances at the simple things that would have brought them joy.
How about you? When you don’t know what to do or can’t seem to connect to what you think you should do, what little trick helps you snap back into resonance with your deeper self?